grant me the wisdom to know the difference

i am too damned incompetant to do this job.

i could be a poster child for nurture vs. nature. somewhere along the way, my brain made a bad connection and lost the ability to distinguish debate from heated argument. i get upset. i cry. i think i'm dumb, and i forget that i'm not dumb.

i don't feel like i'm being anti-social. i'm just tired of everything.

i still can't sleep at night.

the wisdom to know the difference...

good things. i saw a cardinal this morning, and cardinals are my favorite bird. it was sitting in the tree waiting for me when i left my apartment, and made me think of home. also, today is my dad's birthday. i called as i ate lunch at my desk to catch him before he went to bed, and that was nice.

(7:13 p.m.)

these are the days i want someone to come home too. not even a husband or boyfriend per say. just someone. to come home to, and to take away all the frustration. to hug me and tell me that they love me.