will these conflicting emotions ever end?

it's funny, atlanta. i don't want it back, and yet i miss it desperately. it's weird to think of living another sixty years and never having again the same thing i had then. i imagine that i will find closeness in different ways, but wow, what an environment college was. i don't think i really consider this year at stanford to be part of my "college" experience. it's so different in so many ways.

there is a lot more i could say along that line of thought, but i am having trouble thinking of the words, so i'll postpone it for now.

christina has been spending a lot of time lately with carter and kent. it is odd to think of how she has sort of fallen into what used to be my "place." i used to be the third corner of that triangle, and now she is. it doesn't really bother me as much as it just puts me in a contemplative and nostalgic mood. i'm glad she is discovering what an amazing pair those two can be.

it is so nice to see christina. i have missed her so much.