pondering the meaning of age

happy birthdays to david and james! i can't believe my brother is 22. i can't believe in 20 days i will be 24. sometimes i feel so old, and a sense of anxiety about my future and its uncertainly overwhelms me...the feeling that i should have a "plan." but other times, when i am less stressed by school and work and life in general, i realize that a hell of a lot has happened in the past 24 years, and in another 24 years, i won't even be 50 yet. i mean, if you want to think outright funny...24 years ago, i didn't know how to walk or talk or take care of myself, and now i can do them all with ease. heh. not to mention the fact that i'm well educated, have great friends, a great family, and a new job on the horizon. so in the really, really grand scheme of things, i'm doing ok, eh? ;)

chris and christina are up in the city today, as i had class literally from 9-5 with only an hour break for lunch. they were going to go to alcatraz, and i think muir woods as well...i'm about to give them a call to see what they're up to. tico and i are meeting them for dinner up in sausalito at 7:30, so that should be fun. and it gives me an hour right now to get some homework done, an un-fun but necessary activity.

on the way home, i bought some girl scout cookies. mmmmmmm.