missing them

most of the time i swim happily along in this california river. then someone sends me something like this and i start missing them all over again:

(10:33 p.m.)

maybe it's not supposed to be easy. maybe it's supposed to be nerve-wracking and uncertain at first. i wonder if i'm up to the challenge of finding out.

i know that's cryptic. it has been a long day, and tomorrow promises to be no different. i have two homework assignments due thursday, a column due tomorrow afternoon, and a bunch of reading to do tonight. i won't finish it all, but hopefully i can get at least half done. i am stressed by school, and confused about my personal life. i talked to carter tonight, and to neal. i watched tv while doing e206 homework. now i am feeling the need to escape, but nick is not there, and neither is emily, and neither is valerie. i wish starbucks was still open.

i think i would smile really big if i could just find a good place with homemade ice cream here. like jake's. is that so much to ask?