my constant dilemma

i can't do my homework. again. argh. i sat down today to take a look at my calendar and realized that i will be lucky to survive the next two weeks--i have three homeworks due this week, one large homework due next week, and three midterms next week. i don't know if it's worth all this work, grad school i mean. i can't see myself doing this for five more years...then again, i can't see myself doing anything else. my constant dilemma.

flute ensemble was cancelled tonight, so i have more time to work, or as the case may be, more time to stare at my blank sheets of paper with nothing on them save the problem statement itself. i hate this. when i know how to do a problem, it gives me a lot of satisfaction that i'm able to do it right away. when i don't know how to do it, you'd think somehow i'd derive even more appreciation from the work it takes to figure it out...but no. i just get frustrated.

i want to go visit atlanta.